Before you read on

If you are having thoughts of ending your life, this course is not the right place for you to be right now, and reading further will not help you today. Please tell someone today. Call your local emergency number or go to your nearest emergency department. Ring a crisis line in your country. Ask your doctor for an urgent appointment and say the thoughts out loud, in plain words. Or tell a person who is physically in the room with you and stay near them. Having these thoughts is a symptom of an illness, it is more common than people say, and it is treatable. Telling someone is the thing that helps, not the thing that condemns you.

Lesson 1 of 6

This is not the same thing as sadness

Sadness is about something. It has a shape, it has a subject, and it moves. You can be sad and still enjoy your food.

What this course is about is different. It flattens things rather than sharpening them. People describe it as grey, or as being behind glass, or as everything costing more than it used to.

The clearest single sign is that the things which used to give something back have stopped giving it. Not that they hurt. That they do nothing.

What it looks like from the inside · Inshirah