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Afterwards, say out loud what actually took place. You spoke without planning it and it went ordinarily. That sentence is the part that changes something.
Without it the mind files the whole thing under special circumstances: they were being kind, it was a safe room, it does not count. Keep the going over concrete. What did you say, what did they say, what did you expect, what happened instead. Facts in that order are much harder to argue away than a vague sense that it went alright.
Qur’an and Sunnah
do not be distressed at what they say: We know what they conceal and what they reveal (Quran 36:76). The dread of hidden judgement is answered by what is genuinely known, not by what you imagine was thought.
فَلَا يَحۡزُنكَ قَوۡلُهُمۡۘ إِنَّا نَعۡلَمُ مَا يُسِرُّونَ وَمَا يُعۡلِنُونَ
So [Prophet] do not be distressed at what they say: We know what they conceal and what they reveal
Qur’an 36:76read it in the library
Translation: M.A.S. Abdel Haleem, The Qur'an, Oxford University Press, 2004.
What the research says
An experimental study of how socially anxious people think about a past social event found that the mode of thinking mattered more than whether they thought about it at all. Abstract analytical going over carried different costs from concrete recall of what actually happened. That is one line of experimental work rather than a treatment trial, but it supports keeping the review specific and factual instead of open ended.
Wong QJ, Moulds ML. (2012). Processing mode during repetitive thinking in socially anxious individuals: evidence for a maladaptive experiential mode.. Journal of behavior therapy and experimental psychiatry doi
Strength of evidence: one line of research. A single study, or a theoretical account.
Why it works
An experience only moves a belief when you spell out what it proved.
This one is still a draft. It is waiting on a scholar and a clinician to read it before it is published.
Near this one
You will probably not feel yourself getting better. One day you will be halfway through a chat with a stranger and realise you are doing the thing you could not do.
Sometimes a parent who seemed cold or impossible to please turns out to have been working with a different wiring altogether. Learning that can loosen something no amount of arguing with yourself would.
Friends who know what this feels like are worth a great deal. Leaning on them as your therapy is a different thing, and it tends to go badly for everyone.