Practices

Going numb is a good way to survive something and a poor way to live near someone. It shuts the line in both directions at once.

When you cannot feel your own signal you also stop picking up theirs, so the room goes quiet even when they are reaching for you. The loneliness that…

I am used to it is not the same as I feel nothing. It usually means a great deal of practice at feeling nothing, and that practice costs something.

Believe the person when they say they are used to it, and hear what is inside the sentence: this has happened often enough that they have built…

When somebody says they just get on with it, take the getting on with it seriously. That is the door, and arguing with the nothing is a wall.

This happens a lot, I just roll with it, I forget about it: there is a whole strategy in that sentence and it is visible, unlike the feeling…

Pulling back makes you harder to reach, which makes people give up on reaching, which looks like proof that nobody was coming. The loop closes itself.

Being told to open up rarely breaks it, because opening up in one go is exactly the risk the whole strategy exists to prevent. What breaks it is…

Some anger is really about being left. It flares when someone pulls away, goes quiet or seems less interested, and it comes out as an accusation rather than as the fear it is.

The giveaway is that it happens with the same one or two people, the ones whose closeness you rely on. Anger skills alone do little here, because the…