It has a name, and it has been studied
Two things worth knowing at the start. There is a named category for the pattern in this lesson, and it is not the same as strict parenting. And the long term consequences of a harmful childhood have been measured, which matters here for one reason only, which is that you are not being dramatic. It says nothing about what will happen to you.
What the research says
Barber BK (1996). Parental psychological control: revisiting a neglected construct. Child Development, 67(6), 3296 to 3319
Researchers separate two kinds of control. Behavioural control is rules and supervision, which is ordinary parenting. Psychological control is intrusion into the child's inner world: love withdrawal, guilt, telling a child what they really feel, shutting down what they say, and attacks on the person rather than the behaviour. The second is the one linked with the kind of difficulty that turns inward. The identifier for this paper has not been confirmed by us, so none is published here.
Hughes K, Bellis MA, Hardcastle KA, Sethi D, Butchart A, Mikton C, Jones L, Dunne MP (2017). The effect of multiple adverse childhood experiences on health: a systematic review and meta-analysis. The Lancet Public Health, 2(8), e356 to e366 doi
37 studies and 253,719 people, looking at 23 outcomes. Comparing people with four or more adverse childhood experiences against people with none, the associations ranged from weak for things like inactivity and weight, through moderate for smoking and heart disease, to strongest for problem drug use and violence. The authors state plainly that the studies disagreed with each other a great deal, with high heterogeneity for almost half the outcomes. This is population level risk and it is not a prediction about any individual person.