If one thing stays with you

Let it be this.

Guilt is about what you did and it has an exit. Shame is about what you are and it has none, so it sends you back for the fastest way out, which is the thing itself. The hour after is where the loop closes, and the hour after is the part that is available to you.

Tawbah has no distress threshold and no required number. Going back later does not reach backwards and cancel what you meant when you said it. And how bad you feel about this is not a measurement of how serious it is.

Nothing in this course counted anything, and nothing reset. There was never a streak to lose.