Practices

The person you love and the person who frightened you are one person, and you are not obliged to decide which of them is the real one. Both were in the room.

People tend to collapse this in one direction or the other. Either the frightening one is the truth and every kind thing was an act, or the kind one…

Hurting yourself is not always about coping. Sometimes it is aimed at somebody else, and until you know which it is you cannot know what would help.

This is uncomfortable to ask about and it is not an accusation. An act can be a way through an unbearable hour, or a message to someone who has…

Before anything else, take seriously what self-injury is doing for a person. Pain in the body can be easier to hold than pain in the mind, and a hurt you chose yourself can feel like control coming back.

There are other honest reasons too. It can switch the world off for a while, or hold up a kind of armour: nobody can hurt me worse than I already do,…

See what you made me do to myself. When self-harm is carrying a message like that, naming the message is not dismissing it, it is looking for the thing that could be said instead.

The question can be asked kindly and straight. Do you ever get angry enough with them to want to hurt yourself so that they feel it. People often say…

Anger sends people back to the thing they had stopped, and the thing they had stopped makes the anger worse. Any plan that treats these as two separate projects tends to come apart.

Write anger into the relapse plan by name, alongside the parties, the old friends and the difficult anniversary. Then when you look at the anger, ask…

Let yourself be frightened. People who cannot stand the feeling tend to do something reckless to make it stop, and it is the recklessness that gets them hurt.

Old soldiers say the same thing about who survived: not the ones who felt nothing, but the ones who could admit they were terrified and stay careful…

Anger itself is standard issue. Handling it well is not, and nobody is born knowing how.

Which means the thing you have been calling a character flaw is closer to a skill nobody taught you. That changes the job: not becoming a person who…

Holding yourself in is effortful for everybody, every time. When it slips you have not uncovered a permanent fault in yourself.

The story people tell after a lapse usually does more damage than the lapse. One bad evening becomes proof, proof becomes despair, and despair makes…

Never decide you are safe because the other person is scared. Frightened people are often the ones who go furthest.

Anger as fear is a useful way of understanding somebody and a useless safety assessment. If the voice is rising, if the space between you is closing,…

Anger rescues you from an unbearable in between by handing you something to do. The relief is real, and that is exactly why it keeps coming back.

Fear asks you to sit in a situation that has not resolved yet, which is a horrible ask. Anger says no to that and converts it into action, and the…

Anger makes a convincing costume for insecurity, and the person most often taken in by it is the one wearing it.

It reads as courage from outside because the frightened person is supposed to be the one running away. From inside it feels like conviction, which is…

Think of the anger as a creature with a parent, and the parent is fear. Nearly everybody is keeping one, and because nobody mentions theirs, each person quietly assumes they are the only one.

Two useful things follow. If you want to do something about the creature, go upstream and deal with its parent, because fighting the thing itself is…

Treat a flare-up as a reading rather than a failure. It is telling you where something is sore.

Instead of the usual round of apology and self-disgust, get curious. What exactly set it off, what did it seem to put at risk, why that today and not…

Telling yourself to calm down asks the part of you that has just gone offline to do the work. Have something practised and physical ready instead, something your hands and lungs can do without instructions.

Relax is a wish, not a skill. A skill is: breathe out for longer than you breathe in, six times. Or: unclench, both feet flat on the floor, shoulders…

When your mouth opens to shout, let the air go out slowly through pursed lips instead. Same body part, different job.

It helps that you are not being asked to do nothing. The mouth is already open and the breath is already moving, so you are redirecting something…

If you feel yourself rising, sit down. It is the smallest instruction in the whole toolkit and often the one that works.

Standing tall with a raised voice tells your own body that a fight is on, and it tells the other person the same thing, so they brace and match you.…

Your hand is already halfway there. From a clenched fist, keep the thumb and index finger touching and let the other three fingers open out.

It is the same hand doing nearly the same thing, so there is nothing new to learn at the worst possible moment. People often describe a small opening…

Rest your fingertips against one another and let your attention go to the place where they meet. It is a small piece of contact that is always available to you.

Anger sharpens the line between you and everything outside your skin, and everything on the far side of that line starts looking like a threat or an…

Fear pulls the in breath long. Relief runs the other way and comes out as a sigh, which is your body's own signal that the danger has passed.

Knowing the direction you are aiming in helps. When you are frightened or furious the breath gets pulled in, fast and high in the chest, because the…

The usual advice to take a deep breath can work against you. A big pull of air in rouses the very system you are trying to quiet.

Leave the in breath alone and lengthen only the out breath. Breathe in normally through the nose, let the air out slowly, then repeat without ever…